Fugue State

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 Gold Dust Woman, Talia's dev
Apr 2 2016, 11:33 PM
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
Talia -grumpy face- Rosario
Basics
Name: Talia Zoe "Jade" Rosario-Moreno
Tália: Portuguese form of Thali -- from the Greek name Θαλεια (Thaleia), derived from θαλλω (thallo) meaning "to blossom". In Greek mythology she was one of the nine Muses, presiding over comedy and pastoral poetry. This was also the name of one of the three Graces or Χαριτες (Charites).

Zoe: Means "life" in Greek. From early times it was adopted by Hellenized Jews as a translation of EVE. It was borne by two early Christian saints, one martyred under emperor Hadrian, the other martyred under Diocletian. The name was common in the Byzantine Empire, being borne by a ruling empress of the 11th century. As an English name, Zoe has only been in use since the 19th century. It has generally been more common among Eastern Christians (in various spellings).

Rosario: Means "rosary" from Portuguese rosario. This name was often given to people born on the day of the festival of Our Lady of the Rosary.

Moreno: From a nickname meaning "dark" in Spanish and Portuguese.

Luciérnaga (nickname): Spanish for Firefly.


Birthday: Feb, 17th 1958
Nickname(s): Tal, Zoe rarely Luciérnaga
Home Town: Venezuela, Brazil
Nationality: Brazilian American
Languages: Portuguese, Spanish & English

In Depth
Occupation: Dance Instructor & Co-owner @ S.F. Dance Academy. Exotic/pole Dancer @ Bottoms Up.

Father:

Birth -- Adriano Moreno - unknown
Adoptive -- Joaquin Romero -- alive
Mother:
Birth -- Dia Rosario - deceased
Caregiver -- Nannet 'Nan' Nunez - deceased
Adoptive -- Magdelena Garza -- alive
Siblings: no biological siblings
Alejandro 'Alejo' Garza -- alive
Carlos Romero -- alive
Mateo "Teo" Romero -- alive
Joaquin Romero -- alive
Tomas Romero (cousin) -- alive
Children: none
Pets: 2 parrots, 1 pineapple (Dia) & 1 green cheek (Nan) conure.
birbs~

Shipping
Sexuality/Orientation: Bisexual/Demiromantic
Talia has a very sordid history with rape which has colored not only her relationships but also her ability to trust outside forces. She's a woman who holds herself accountable for everything she's done, is extremely hard on herself and has done a very many terrible things in the face of justice. While her soul is still clean and her good deeds far outweigh her bad, this is nothing she believes of herself. Talia isn't someone who sleeps around, ever. If she does and it seems sudden or spontaneous, there was a reason and she'll likely not call you back, ever. She's bisexual though she's leaning towards Demi in this realm, she has dated both men and women both and finds neither easier than the other. Her last long-standing relationship was with a guy (Alec) who left under her own urgings to live his life. Before that, it was a good few decades and was a woman (Sasha). She has no real preferences, though she does find it easier to sleep around with women than men due to her jaded past with men.

Status: Single & Shipped
Shipped w/Drew, these two have had a rocky go of it (not entirely their fault) that spans a literal RL 3.5-ish years and are finally to the point where they're settling into a stationary orbit. Talia would never admit it but she is lowkey infatuated with Drew and has been for a while. The issue is Drew's soft softens her edges, which she hates. It makes her feel vulnerable and a woman as keen to never look weak tends to loathe this with every fiber of her being. They have a verrrrry passionate push/pull relationship where they both egg each other on and challenge. They're still at a very stupid "I hate you" stage of their relationship and haven't done much more than kiss and dance, but even these come with the same push/pull challenge. They're getting there, but for now she'll keep shooting him wry looks in some hope he shapes up finally agrees that she's not worth it and moves on trolololoool.

Details
Height: 5'2"
Hair: Sable, wavy, shoulder length - long.
Eyes: Green
Tattoos: SANSKRIT over right ribs. LATIN on left wrist, roughly "know thyself". DREAM CATCHER on left side. BEE/FIREFLY on right wrist . THESE BIRDS on the inside of her left foot & DARLING JUST HOLD ON on the inside of her right foot. SPIRAL between breasts. THIS TOO SHALL PASS hugging right breast. ROSARY on right foot (done by Jules).

Piercings: ear lobes, 1 helix & forward helix in left ear, rook in right ear & nipples (horizontal).

Extras
Likes: Tequila sours, birds, her pard members (some days), Drew I guess~, family, dance, her day job, routine, familiarity, dance clubs or anywhere loud where she can forget herself, curled in a windowsill on a rainy day reading.

Dislikes: Pretty much everything. Large groups of people, her current evening job, feelings, being made to feel anything that she doesn't want, people that rush into things, anyone who drags her into things that are none of her business to begin with. Cinnamon. Most importantly, herself.

Quirks & Habits: Talia has a really bad habit of shrugging or rolling her eyes in answer to any question she's uncomfortable answering or deems unworthy of a verbal response. When she's flustered, frustrated or otherwise pushed into a situation she's uncomfortable with she tends to chew on the side of her lower lip. Scowling and or looking completely bewildered by the amount of stupidity that often comes out of people's mouths.

Apr 3 2016, 12:01 AM
323
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
[TW: abuse, abortion, rape... All of them >_>]

Fact Sheet a la Talia:
  • witch & humanity - Was a fire witch before she was turned and loved her humanity/mortality more than anything. She tends to covet this in others, having long lost hers, though she knows it's fleeting as are they she can't help but love it and long for her own to be returned.
  • birds & family - Her birds are named after her mother (Dia) and the woman that raised her (Nan), she spends most every lunch hour with them, treats them as she would family and she tells them everything.
  • swan lake - Was the first (in vegas/west coast) non-white woman to play the princess in the swan lake ballet when she was in her early 20's.
  • abuse & rape - In order to obtain the spotlight she sold her soul to the devil (figuratively), and entered into an emotionally/physically abusive relationship with her director (Johnathan) that lasted roughly 2 years. Before and during this period she was raped, repeatedly by said man but justified the pain as a necessary evil to keep her title/position and also help advance and open the eyes of the dancing community as a whole.
  • the fall & abortion - Near the end of her run, and her relationship with her director, she fell victim to pregnancy and had a needed abortion. this laid her up too many days and gave John the necessary reason to rescind her position and shove her back into the chorus string.
  • continued abuse & departure - Talia stuck around for a year after her end as princess and continued to dance using this time to both educate/shield the new princess (a starry eyed 18yo girl next door) and the troop of John's ways. Was raped several more times during this period, all of which were used as shielding for the new girl. Better Talia than an innocent bystander. She left only after John was fired (for embezzling, but it was better than nothing) and moved on to LA.
  • Hates the Swan Lake ballet.. for obvious reasons lol.
  • children - Has a deep soft spot for children. Talia adores them for the unfiltered honesty and thought process and will do anything and everything in her power to protect this aspect of them. Where she's cold and distant with adults (people who lie like it's going out of fashion) she is always warm and tactile and caring with anyone under the age of thirteen (or so).
  • cooking & baking - Talia is a terrible cook overall, though her adopted brother's mother (Nina) taught her many Spanish dishes she's more than adept at making she rarely does (as they feed a large amounts of people and who even needs people??) She does bake, though she doesn't particularly like sweets, it calms her and the kids in her classes like sweets, so win win.
  • good deeds - She teaches 1-2 classes a week that are free of charge and specifically tailored for the children of low income, local shelter youth, orphanages & less fortunate households. In these classes she pairs her trained dancers (all volunteers) with each kids for 1v1 work every other week, treating it more like a big brother, big sister group.
  • stripping & self hatred - Continues to work as a stripper 5 nights a week, though she doesn't need the money any longer, it helps feed into her self hatred so she covets it for this aspect alone.
  • salty af - She prefers salty flavors, with savory as a close second. Anything tart and sour and usually frowned upon she generally gravitates towards while also disliking most sweet things.
  • alcohol & drunk - Her favored alcohol is tequila, and mixed drink is tequila sour (doesn't like whiskey). When drunk she becomes the woman she should have been before life shat all over her, warm and charismatic, the complete opposite of her daily self. Once sober though, she is always full of the regrets that come along with being someone so different than her norm. Enter self-loathing over every nice thing she told you while she was smiling.
  • daily life - Talia's apartment is a a hot mess 24/7. A true disaster area if there ever was one. The care she takes with everyone else is never awarded to her and her time spent at home is really only ever spent there because of her birds, which keep her tethered to the place and normalized overall. Really, it's a place that her birds live and she sleeps lol.
  • fuck & run - Not the type to stay over, when she does sleep with someone or anyone, she's present for as long as it takes and then she's gone. She's not a snuggler by nature (she is but not with anyone she's just fucking real quick lol) and never one to overstay her welcome. Welcome or not. Also, do not expect her to call you afterward, she won't. Ever.
  • noise & drowning - She spends her nights off in clubs, really, any of her free time is spent in loud, busy places where she can lose herself and forget about her woes. She tends to favor clubs over bars, specifically for their noise and chaos.
  • self respect - Do not treat her or look at her like a piece of meat outside of the strip club, she will slay you. Alternatively, do not look at her like a person in the strip club.. see previous statement lol.
  • love lost - Recently lost one of the only people she's ever loved due to her own malfunctions (how does one even say 'I love you'??), and is currently extremely self-hating/chiding and closed off because of it. She is also 100% certain that he (Alec) is contented and thinks nothing of her, a lie she feeds herself to self soothe.
  • fuck you alec - Generally avoids everything that reminds her of Alec; dark eyes (worse when cinnamon flecked), strawberries, the need to be nice to her and GAF about anything she does & compliments over her life (call her beautiful, she won't GAF. Compliment her good deeds? She will hate you out of spite.)
Apr 3 2016, 12:13 AM
323
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
mood board



Apr 3 2016, 12:31 AM
323
posts
60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
Talia 'Jade' Rosario - The Russian Siren
Apr 3 2016, 12:44 AM
323
posts
60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

awards

haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
Fall of a Queen
Gold Dust Woman - Fleetwood Mac
Rock on ancient queen
Follow those who pale in your shadow
Rulers make bad lovers
You better put your kingdom up for sale
W.D.Y.W.F.M? - THE NEIGHBOURHOOD
Two nights ago, she got that look in her eyes
Kaleidoscope, but that's only half the time
Three days before she told me that I don't even try
She's crazy, though, I guess there's something wrong inside
i hate u i love u - gnash
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
Trouble - Halsey
Would you bleed for me?
Lick it off my lips like you needed me?
Would you sit me on a couch?
With your fingers in my mouth?
You look so cool when you're reading me.

Would you lie for me?
Cross your sorry heart and hope to die for me?
Would you pin me to a wall?
Would you beg or would you crawl?
Stick a needle in your hungry eyes for me?

River - Tula
She gave her days for his night
Bit by bit she lost where it was going
He told her to look further down
let into the weight she touched the border
She stroke the bottom with her hands
Finally she felt like she was rising
He told her to look further down

With my hands before my eyes
I give away my sight
When the colours start to fade
The waters wash away
And the river comes and takes me

Cool Girl - Tove Lo
Rules you don't like, but you still wanna keep 'em
Said you want fines for whatever reason
Show we can chill, try and keep it platonic
Now you can't tell if I'm really ironic

I'm a, I'm a, I'm a cool girl, I'm a, I'm a cool girl
Ice cold, I roll my eyes at you, boy

Gold - Echos
All I feel is emptiness here
Searching for what you want me to say
I'm terrified by their eyes when they stare
This loneliness won't go away

Nobody knows who I am
I've got intentions of gold with my plans

I've realized nothing I do feels right
Lost in my head and out of sight
Dreaming of the day when I leave
And what the world has left for me

Stonecold - Machineheart
Vultures circle overhead
People love to watch a wreck
I hate the whispers and the stares
But I lost you, so now who cares

Now I'm standing in a wasteland, Of us
Desert bones and dried up places, We lost
Don't pretend you wanna change, When you don't
Oh you know you did me wrong
Oh you know you turn me stone cold

Don't look down cause you could fall
From up so high I must look small
Don't hate me to prove a point
We were lovers, weren't we boy?

Don't you see the mess you made?
Oh you know you turn me stone cold

Apr 3 2016, 02:45 AM
323
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
….and she loved a…boy very, very much– even more than she loved herself.
Shel Silverstein, The Giving Tree
Her heart was a secret she was afraid of; she wouldn’t talk to anybody about it, nor would she think about it, because if she did, she remembered that it was real.
perfect-barbarian-land@tumblr
She was not a masterpiece. She was still broken pieces clumsily glued together, with a beautifully dyed, rugged soul.
the-desperate-lesbian@tumblr
You are never destroyed by anyone except yourself.
Friedrich Nietzsche
She was brave and strong and broken all at once.
Anna Funder
she told me that love is a loaded gun that she’s been trying to dodge for many years now.
iambrillyant
You are unexplored, unusual, and terrifyingly beautiful. And only a few will know how to love you without breaking you and making you dangerous.
Nikita Gill
She held her pose like an ancient masterpiece:
grandiose, fascinating, beautiful
and slowly falling apart.
deatheda
I only speak of myself when I smile at you
And when I smile at you
That is the scariest thing of all I could ever do
Dorothea Lasky
I would like to be soft and warm. I would be terrified to be that way. I could be hurt if I were soft and warm. I could be hurt by something other than myself. It is harder to be soft than it is to be hard. I could be hurt by something other than myself.
James Frey
You want something I can never give you. You want warmth, tenderness, the subliminal touch of a lover, and I, all I can give you is an unfulfilled ache, and some frost from the frozen waste that is my heart.
incandescentghost
Still, the longer I was around her, the more I could see the colours of her mind and the recesses of her heart. There was a beast in there. But there was also a girl who was afraid of being a beast, and who wondered if other people had beasts in their hearts too. There was strength, and there was also just the determination to look strong. She guarded herself like a secret.
Jodi Lynn Anderson
she could be hell on some days,
heaven on others,
sunny on some days,
gloomy on others,
you had to experience both to understand her beauty.
iambrillyant
What a thing,
to be both starving and empty.
To ache for love–
to take the scraps from it’s table,
and yet, run sickly from the feast.

You can’t fathom why I’d
gobble your kisses but
duck your attention, please.
Understand–

Some of us have gone so long
hungry,
the idea of being full
feels worse
than the affliction.

Ashe Vernon (love disorders and other old heartaches,)
Jan 27 2017, 02:47 AM
323
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
Talia's Little Black Book
Adeline Byrne
relationship details

Alec (NPC)

Old pard member for 5+ years. Supported Talia while she was alpha before her fall, were very close. After Talia stepped down they had a relationship that lasted roughly a year, they were very hot & cold and argued AF though despite it all they loved each other, a fact they never said out loud. Talia finally pushed him away enough that he left when one of his escort clients offered to take him along to some island, relocating himself somewhere exotic. Talia remains bitter at herself for never saying anything of love but also retains the mentality that "it's better this way."
Notes: strawberries - cinnamon flecks - argumentative lil shit~

Alejandro 'Alejo'
relationship details

Antonio Delgado
banged. rode him like a pony. also related. hahahah. -- news flash; turned him gay AF. GDI TALIA >( WTF???? you're fucking fired >(((((

Asmund Dawnblood
relationship details

Drew Hunter
loves him. great guy. DTF 5eva

Desmond Wright
relationship details

Eileen Grey (NPC)
adopted daughter. basically. great kid. down to... parent. and pat on the head. aces stuff.

Ellis McKenzie
relationship details

Finn Waters
relationship details

Harley Johnson
relationship details

Johnathan Myers (NPC)
relationship details

Leanna Nowell
relationship details

Merle Fraser
relationship details

Persephone Masters
hooker

Roland Sauvage
tried to bang her. dreams of lesbians. might be a lesbian himself. suspected butch dyke or just a very tits focused man. possibly both. investigate

Jan 28 2017, 10:00 PM
323
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
SF Dance Academy


SF Dance Academy
Jun 7 2017, 01:54 AM
323
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726

Dance Inspo~
Feb 4 2018, 10:02 PM
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
a song on repeat


push me, pull you


the waiting game


the idiots~

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Feb 4 2018, 10:03 PM
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

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haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
the fall of Rome


the look of love I


the look of love II


the look of love III
May 21 2018, 01:35 AM
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60 Shifter Stripper & Dance Instructor
Amur Leopard
Come closer now and step right into the wide mouth; the sharp teeth of the one you love.
Cautela Pard Alpha
Bisexual
dating // Shipped (Drew)
Tal / T

awards

haterade
Sarah
she/her/that bitch | PST | 3/3/3 | Sarahroo#5726
Talia's House

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master suite

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